I never cared about the parts of you that were broken Plenty of them still work In terms of simple mechanics there's no need for adjustments To keep that heart from falling in love I spent the better of never Thinking about what you don't look like naked I'll be your outfitter - just don't dress It detracts from your parents hard work fucking So what if it's all I want to do? It's being around you - It's being inside I know the things that get you off kid So here's to our vices - our learning devices Blame Where's the blame? I'm at fault but your ashamed? So? Oh shit, they put me down Now I need a pick me up Are we shining stars or just Christmas lights? I am burnt the fuck out on these needless nights Let me go...

come on won't you take me back where you can't lead me twist me, turn me, break me molding me is easy throw me in your closet (among cobweb verse) wear me like a new dress (rode home in the hearse) clinging all too tightly (I'm afraid that) nestled upon your breast (I'm awaken) come Fabled facts are now coming back for remnants of a long lost you Now writhe failings of a washed up me ...too late You tried holding me way too high off the ground I tried to become a lover but I'm prone to the sound of silence come Fabled facts are now coming back for remnants of a long lost you Now writhe failings of a washed up me ...too late You tried holding me way too high off the ground I tried to become a lover but I'm prone to the sound of silence

I am mother nature I am walking contradictions In a vat of amniotic fluid I am terms of endearment I am stalking your afflictions In the slums of embryonic movement We were A perfect start to a worthless end Adumbrated tendencies Of a vacillating dream I am fleeing saviors I am calling the bluff of fiction In a city of dystopic blueprints I am freeing future-tenses bound to bred addictions In a haze of rats disguised students We were A perfect start to a worthless end Adumbrated tendencies Of a vacillating dream We were A perfect scar to a wound that sought no mend Aggravated remedies of unwavering change The rotting trunk of this absent mind Vanishing consciousness stepping out of time Your heart on a silver platter that your pop the blacksmith struck As he did my blade I built a fire rubbing two sticks together and thought you'd like to know I sure could of used your flame but burn out you would, just as you should you must be so tired, so sore, rubbing two sticks together A stigmatic whisper You were The perfect start to a worthless end

Dissonance - our song Lovely little chorus - chaos Trembling hands flee each other now Look at the man you called love Look at the love you called wrong Look at the ones you'll retreat Look at yourself... I'm lost cause you'll do what you want Impulsive and dumb I can't make you right Cause I can't make you mine So far gone You're so far gone Do you like how it feels knowing you fucked it up? That it's all on you Just not me My love's a reprieve That you don't deserve And I suppose that you don't deserve me And I suppose that I shan't reserve you Now stop Listen to yourself Spouting drivel On a roll We care but only a little Have a drink, sink, then carry on along to the next best object to sell your thoughts I'm found Cause I gotta have you around or my soul is unsound but I can't make me right If I have you in sight Do you like how it feels knowing you're gonna come? When I move in you You're empty This fuck's a reprieve That I don't deserve

Once "If" poisoned half the lot Drowned-trust ricochet Limbs of the leper beginning to rot A fall from grace Now we feign the taste A fate to trace Now we're face to face And I tremble at your knees While you eat out of my hands Toward a misstep that I can't afford Pregnant with a future that we can't abort Once "How" sold his birthright Crowned-lust giveaway Limbs that can't fault my own find me flying A hastened waste (running the clock) Now we echo fates (walking the walk) A faith to hate (trust is a sap) Now we're face to face (or back to back) And I tremble at your throne While you eat like an agathist Toward a mishap that I can't ignore Pregnant with a longing that I can't abort And I tremble at myself While I drink the mirror again Toward a mistrial I can't endure Pregnant with a verdict that I can't abort

I somehow always thought If I could see you you could see me What folly logic Mistaking your identity I remain invisible to your deafened eyes And all too visible to your open legs Don't ask why I'm a fool for you Cause I just don't know And I never knew How to unlearn something That I know all too well Cause I didn't learn And I'll never learn How to stop this thinking When my body's sinking [I'd follow you to hell Just to ask where to buy a halo I'd follow you to heaven Just to feel the fall again] Pa' always said don't let a woman love you That's when you know that it's time for them to go Ma' always said just wear your heart on your sleeve For when the clothes are off there are no chances of a heart breaking I must ask why you're a fool for me Cause I think you know And you always knew How to unlearn something That you know all too well Cause you must've learned When the tables turned How to start this thinking That we might be sinking [I'd follow you to hell Just to ask for the throne I'd follow you to heaven Just to know descent again] Perhaps the only difference between me and other people is that I always demanded more from the sunset More spectacular colors when the sun hit the horizon That's perhaps my only sin it comes in waves my hate for you just like your love unassured thing this time i might just leave it alone no... The sky was drowned in grey that day we gave it all away We watched our pretty petty stars laugh and rearrange The notion of a starting point ate up by every breath Exhaled by common morale, exhumed by differences I tried every day to once embrace the swell of Saturn’s trust To fend the beaming pillar of the great Venus’s lust But with love in bloom to time’s etude a tune we held in swoon We danced entranced in pure romance, my heart begging to move You lent a lore greater than all the stories told before And bred a light that grew in spite of a true skeptics core You spoke as if our blunders would have made the slightest difference But at the end of days baby all we will cling to is deliverance For where there is fact, there is fiction Either is an addiction Where there’s up, there is down Either can turn around Where’s there’s wrong, there is right Either will do tonight For where there’s you, there’s me For all eternity

You have always held my attention longer than you meant to But now, a concentration shattered and incomplete The integral I spawn from a shrouded sky release You're draining me As these fluids mix Pledging fealty To a fucking crucifix You want to recognize Me in this disguise Well we'll never take it off Cause we're here to stay And yet, with indignation, an absent intervention In step, with rhythm, a delectable intention Peeling it back now Revel in revealing A mantric slide Into ethereal divides Corrugated thinking Spawns a preferential galaxy Ameliorated function Of a spider-eyed fallacy Pulling back the curtains A grandeur reserved For a machination Of a sepulchral past Surrogated dreaming A retraction of intent Pretty little insignificance You can rest assured I'll never recompense This city has lost its touch as I remember when I last threw down my crutch to resurrect her Time but blink of her eye to the skies withering just like a widow born into demise I wrote but never spoke; I feared the end was near She choked as If her throat begged to adhere Her lungs gave out - she tried to shout but the air just wasn’t there in that rare amount I fled through the thick and ragged wood I swore I tried to cry but just never could Your memory I kept close like a phosphorescent ghost An erotic novice, ever cautious, what I wanted most Why my mind veered toward the path that bore the breaking of the pact is a fact unknown, but audit prone you’ll find me digging your new home A ten foot fire in the mire of gasoline and barbed wire filthy liar, why conspire? You cannot unetch one’s desire I was bred for you – As you were bred for me I know it’s curt and might just hurt but don’t struggle lovely You’ll find in time, the signs, the rhymes - the mystery all intertwined within our blood, our sweat, our tears, our hardships, friendships, hopes and fears I twist your head around as I fuck you from behind so those whorish little beads finally see me eye to eye They cursed me at inception by pardoning infection so I’ll spew forth all my filth in hopes and dreams to be defective Catatonic carcass in your cobweb Feeding frenzy A transient temptress Saunter slowly Crawl to me my baby In an unsound slow dance A swansong for our romance The guilt becomes you Chance chosen chemistry Turning tricks like loose-knit lore unto your symmetry Call my bluff you power thirsty whore You'll bleed for me before you'll find yourself begging for more Take off your face - you know it's gotta go Take off your face - and leave us all alone Take off your face - just be my mannequin Take off your face - and shed that shaken skin (Primal Gospel)

When I was not considered aged a blank canvas I strode Ripping roots as if a tree bore no family at all although my own embraced my every whim as if this parody I just now unearthed I’ve grown with rotted roots no ladders for my chutes A lone gunman – pistol pointed proof The only way I learn a damn thing about myself. I declare war on my character – my style is plenty defense (As if this parody I just now unearthed) Sometimes I dream I’m a captain like my father steering through squalls ever soundly Though the squall steering his ire a decay will never sound Maybe I’m already at sea I thought you swore these sails sound I wore your name just like a crown I held your truths as if a gun I bore your shame just like a son

Took me through the back alley and said, "You'll live here someday, you joke" And I should have listened once... I should have listened twice... I should have listened... Three times I fail making nice with those three words Now I can't speak them at all Because I only love myself No room for you inside this shell (How can I help you "Out" if you don't let me "In") Save it for a time-lapse shot Save it for a setting sun Allure of existence In diamond-eyed opulence Filled with tension's lying Abandoning languid portents I dry her eyes with silken clouds Where linings adorn draped tombstones As Mercury floods my fragile senses Venial incisions in distant tranquil tones A dream in liquid acquiescence Storms upon breathless waves A love-lust drear stoking the coals Cold-struck fury cloaked in the light A debt overdue A price on the head; renewed A dream's end A broken prayer; uttered to mend A fallacious grave A waking intention; born to enslave A shadow tempted to lull A traced introspection; stained ivory horns of a million lost bulls No more than a deified drifter Like those who crash-land, No promise made to the statues which now stand Found the deathbed, hand-spun predilection Forged in the widow, a natural affection Forlorn by dawn, I face my reflection Fond of trespass, boundaries insignificant Feign ingenuity through novel intrinsic vents So Your word against mine You know traveled resolve stutters my speech When shown A dream in reverse, between the wheels of time I climb until rooftops reveal a lifeline too visceral for closed-eye schemes Nourished and growing The scheme in reverse, above the words of humanity I spawn facile indictments wearing the seams of theocratic regimes Deafen the eyelids by pacifistic sight Blinding cacophony of faded sunlight Perilous paralyses determine our plight Neglecting nemesis's love is all but nigh In a coldsweat shudder, I loose truths and retreat Lapses in force, splaying broken warnings Pincushion-reality, a canvas built from skyline Deflated claim to fame The Leviathan, now, lay tame A call to arms made in silence Meticulous visions racing defiance Beams of virility, impetuosity drowning: dark becoming light Silenced admonitions yielding pallid resilience to natural past-lives Trust posing as tragic intervention Nights of retention mirror mediate division Loosed from the noose under false pretense Tarnished plurality unwound in absence Striking the eternal instinctual pose Renders authentic the maturation of the fabricant's rose None other than what can be done Like a fly toward the light, No further to run

my dick is always gonna be hard for you god dammit your face is too perfect to forget my heart is always gonna re-break for you cause I'll let it we'll always slow dance like paralyzed pantomimes off Turn the lights off, I couldn't bare to see the light go out in you the life sucked out of you Your "God" turn his back on you feel unforgotten bitch my conscious is at the very least thinking for you wonder if there are days when you think of me... I'd like to think that, no, there aren't your too busy counting all your problems in hopes the world came up with the same integer Map - nowhere to we forgot what we sought but we're searching nonetheless I'm comatose Let me rot in this pathetic loneliness my tardiness is right on time (I'm opposed to letting you do what you'd like I'm of the impression that it's dead wrong every time) (I'm opposed to keeping you around this flesh I'm of the impression that I'll taste you every time) I'm not gonna give you absolution I'm not gonna give you an applause You know the things that get me off, kid So here's to my virtues, I'm learning to hurt you